Born in Mackay near the Barrier Reef  in 1961 on Father's Day. My name "April" in latin means "to open Spring".  I was born in the Southern Hemisphere on the 3rd day of Spring and my name is the month of Spring in the Northern Hemisphere. My father named me after he saw my name used in a novel and predicted on the the night of my conception to my mother that she had just fallen pregnant with a girl and my name would be April. So it happened as he said. I'm the first child of both families so am the Oldest grandchild and grand daughter. I was 6 weeks over due. They say if you are you are a genius. Einstein was as was Beethoven but I am no genius. I was born with long hair to the middle of my back with long fingernails and toenails and at 60  I still have long nails and long hair. 3 Dominates my life. I have 3 younger brothers. My youngest was pronounced dead on 13  Aug 2019, it's the final of 3 dates they gave us due to a clot in his brain, He was my "baby". He died 3 weeks exactly before my birthday. I have never been able to have children but have stepsons and 4 step grandsons and 1 step daughter but many adopted children who adopted me as their mum. I lost my own 3 children. So the direct family female line ends on my death as it was always an oldest daughter of an oldest daughter. I am happily married after many hardships, tragedies and seen things no living human being should see. But with the love of the man I married who is my third David In my life I have been getting through. In fact on 4 Sept the day after I turned 60 and 3 days before our 30th wedding anniversary we renewed our vows in front of our family and friends and have been together for 33 yrs. I wore the dress my baby brother bought and the necklace he bought me in Beijing 3 months before he passed when he and his partner went to China to celebrate 25 yrs together. His official date of Death is 25 yrs and 6 mo ths to the very day they met. I like to do craft work and developed a love of painting, beadwork kits etc and as I do it I watch Asian and Bollywood movies and series. I thoroughly enjoy the talent. I am writing a book about my life and of our family. I get it from my great grandfather who used to write for a magazine in Australia many, many  many years ago. I love peacocks and the history of all countries. I try to help as many as I can through my other page on Facebook. But recently with my brother's sudden death I cannot do anything. I believe so powerfully in the power and frailty of love where it is a healer and a weapon against hatred, racism etc. I believe all are equal. I have grown to become so interested in the Asian cultures. My brother 1 year exactly before he passed he and his partner of 25 years took me on my first overseas trip to Kuala Lumpur and Ho Chi Minh City. I never saw him again when I said good bye to come back to my husband, David.  But our last words to each other were on the phone and they were" I love you so much".  I know in this life I have been lucky enough to have had 1 one person for 51 years who loved me and I him so completely. It was his partner, David, (yes we both were and are with Davids.) who put me onto watching these series and movies. My brother was gay but he and his David loved each other more than any hetrosexual couple I have ever met. They had their 25th anniversary the year he passed, in China and he was taking me to China next Year. One day I will make it to there and Asia and see all the places I want to see and I will have him  beside me guiding me. I know I am supposed to do a biography but I need a novel for that.  I have lost 84 kgs of weight. and am now no longer obese but am still classed as overweight. I am now 69 kgs. My brothers always have told me I am the best and prettiest sister that they could ever have in the world.  especially my baby whom we lost. My mother passed away11 years ago. I thought that was hard. I had an accident and had to learn to walk again and now suffer from spinal pain and Chronic kidney disease and am slowly going blind and told just 4 weeks ago because of the pain management the dr put me on I am lucky to be alive and could have suffered Sudden Death. But due to me decreasing my meds and resting my back I have decreased the chances but still can suffer Sudden Death. Am seeing Dr to fix that. We all live subconsciously knowing everyday could be our last but to hear it is another thing. Today I was told my husband can die in his sleep and his heart is not pumping strong enough. But together we will get through this all.  I won't let it beat me or him.. I have too much to see of tis world and do before I go and he still has to find the thing he has lost of himself. I should mention that I have also grown to love Asian music and history. I am learning a great deal of all your cultures. We Australians are always known for sports but we are best known for watching your back and helping anyone in need. I cannot add more without giving too much detail away of my more personal things. If you read this and find it offensive I am sorry. I have a young cousin who is engaged to a Korean boy who was doing national service until his only family member, a sister, died leaving a baby girl and he got custody of her and he is in his very early 20's. Kudos to him. She is happy and I believe he loves her too. I hope to get to meet him one day. I believe we here should have that national service. Too much crime here. They did have it but took it away and slowly it ruined our children. But Thank you for making such wonderful and inciteful programmes for me to broaden my horizons. I basically have had a miserable life but believe all I have gone through was to make me stronger in will, passion and love. I use what I know to help others. I am also a very strong believer in Organ Donations. My brother so far to my knowledge saved 5 people and gave them life and quality of life and as he was a carer for 30 years and helped others in life he also did in death. Covid came just after he passed. I am glad he didn't have to live through that but at least he will be forever young.  To me he is still alive in 5 others and it helps with the grieving process which I am still going through but he is with our mother. She would have been happy to have him with her. His David is now my big brother and part of my family and always will be. I am so grateful for the love he gave my Greg for 25 and 1/2 years. 28 years between them but that didn't matter. Yes he was a very huge part of my life and was there to always support and encourage me. My granddaughter turns 21 this month and my oldest stepson is 40 this year. He is her father. Another year of milestones. I edited this from when I wrote it originally 3 months after Greg passed away. Today is 8th Jan 2022. I am sorry this is morbid. but not too many good things to say except love will get me through and if I can pass that on to others with I do on my page with free readings and it helps them then I am happy. As long as my David is with me for a very long time and continues to love me I am happy. I hope when it comes my time people will remember me laterfor I have no legacies to give this world. ust words and love. i hope that is enough.