akai-kitsune

You know I am who I am! 

Love me or hate me, it's up to you!

                               Hallo,

it has been a while. How are you all? 

For me life has changed a lot since I became one of the first members of MDL`s beta-version.

I remember very clearly how I was asked very kindly by Skye to check it out. Of course I lost no time and subscribed immidiatly. Getting a message from him a few minutes later, to please just check it out and not subscribe, yet.

:) Sorry, Sky...

How long has it been? According to my profile 14 years.

No matter how much I would have loved to be more active, life is not like it was 14 years ago. I`m no longer a student, but have students of my own. I moved from Turkey to Germany for a 5-year-duty, that I managed to get chosen for after 2 failed exams. 

With nearly 40 years of age I`m struggling real hard to get my driver`s license in Germany. Yes, I have a license, but I did not drive after getting my license or maybe the driving school is ripping me off.

Still living the happy single life, as someone, who does not like gatherings other ppl go to. Most of my friends don`t understand why I don`t go on outings with them. 

Since nearly 2 years, I decided to live life for myself and throw away all pressure. Every duty I have as a teacher I do, I need to earn my bread somehow. :) Other than that, most of the time I spend with my family or with myself. I go on long walks, drive along the riverside with my bike. When I have sth to do somewhere I try to get in a nice walk. I stop everytime I see a beautiful scenery, rainbow, beautiful sky. 

Nature and life I appreciate more than ever. Humans I don`t trust that much anymore. I`m friendly with nearly everyone, try not to hurt anyone. As the big sis of 6, I try not to be the big sis of everyone, I`m associated with. As a teacher I don`t teach everyone anymore. Responsibilities, that are not mine, I don`t take on. This way, I noticed the people who really love me for who I am and the people, who just stayed with me, because I`m a social magnet( everyone in our family is like that) and good at connecting ppl or solving problems, they are no longer part of my life.

As a pacifist all of my life and now that I take my time, I like humans even less, because the world once again showed, that appearance is more important than human life. Some people that I knew my whole life, look at me diffrently, because now they understand why I silently started to boycott some megachains as a 12 year old. Some people I respected much, even now at such a crucial time laughed at me. They also are no longer part of my life. You just need to be human to understand others suffering. Remember the first brother murderer? Don`t forget his offsprings also live amongst us, so not every human has the loving heart of the murdered brother. Some of us are no different from the evil itself. Knowing that much is not as bitter as seeing it in real life. Life is beautiful....not really, not for everyone.

The drama world and before that the anime/manga world, always was a little retreat from life. In drama/anime honesty, human life and morals always had a balance to it. Good nearly always prevails. Good and evil had a clear cut distinction. 

Movies don`t have that anymore. They want us to understand the bad witch. We shoud be empathatic with John Wick, who kills a whole city just as revenge for his dog. Nothing against dogs, but why do movies make you think that it is okay to take away something, you will never be able to restore. Taking someones life, shouldn`t be that easy. No matter, how bad a human is, taking what only the Almighty has a right to, should not be protrayed as sth admireable. 

I shouldn`t go that deep, but AC/DC and later MDL were always the place I could vent on and talk on to like minded people.

On a lighter note, I finally realized my childhood dream. 

Last summer I went to JAPAN!

20 days by myself! 

Because I went spontanously I spent my savings of a whole year, but every cent spend, every step taken( 455K btw) and every breath taken was worth it.

Starting from Osaka as a base I went to Wakayama, Nara, Kyoto. Left Osaka for Himeji, Kobe and Hiroshima. Went over to Kanazawa, Nagoya, Hakone and Odawara. Finally, Tokyo. 

Osaka as my base was like home, but a lil cramped. As someone, who doesn`t like AC`s I was so happy to be told by my sister that my room should have AC because she saw the remote in my selfy. The remote was one of the many displays on the beds headboard and the AC was in the ceiling of the lil hallway, coming back from my adventures tired, I never really looked for it and from the bed I never saw it.

Took many pictures with the Glico man. Went to the castle twice without going inside. Ate at a nice halal restaurant, I hate to say it, but I hate japanese cuisine. Other than  the sweet things and drinks I definitly don`t like it. Confession of a picky eater, I lost about 5-6 kg in Japan. I tried, but nope, SevenEleven and FamilyMart prevented me from starving.

In Wakayama, thinking that 45 minutes walk from the train station would be nothing to get me to some little garden, took me through a harbor, to an old residence of a lord, to a little port village, to a beautiful garden, lots of hawks, immensely red face and sweating like a spring.

In Nara I encountered a couple on their wedding shoot in traditional attire. I was too shy to take pictures of them secretly. Prevented a deer from eating a flyer and started my stamp hunt.

Kyoto gave me the chance to walk on Ryomas path and to see a summer festival and understand why in all manga sth dramatic happens at those festivals. The streets were packed with ppl. My first Nintendo store visit, got some merch. The second time, I went to Kyoto, Fushimi Inari was really impressiv, but not as packed as I feared it to be. On the top tourists were sitting on the altar and being disrespectful as ever. On the way down the mountain, I followed an arrowed signed as: Not Exit! Google maps said sthelse. It was soo beautiful, listening to the wind blowing through the bamboo forrest. Down the mountain, I walked through allies with old mansions and temples.

Himeji castle was beautiful, but the shaved ice in that heat and the mosqito bite cream was the highlight.

Getting lost in the mountains of Kobe, just because some stupid wild boars made the little path unrecognizable, got me to walk on paths most probably smugglers or ninjas used centuries before, with Brickenstocks on. Don`t be me, get proper shoes on your feet in the mountains of Kobe. Sitting at the harbor in Kobe till late at night, just breathing in and out, watching the waves and moon was magical.

Hiroshima was sad, exremly sad. Just a few meters away from the dome fans were gathering for a Mr. Children concert. Tourists were taking picture infront of the dome with happy faces and no regard for the history and tragedy of that place. In front of the Memorial Museum, a few kids and their Englishteacher interviewed me. In the museum, I cried a river. Remember, I`m a pacifist. The Studio Ghibli Road Show was really just for japanese, phones not being allowed, I could just look at things. At least I got my pictures taken  as the character on some of the iconic movie posters. 

Getting to Kanazawa was not easy as I was stuck in Osaka station because of some derailed train. In Kanazawa, I had the gold gilded ice cream, so officially I s.... gold. Had tea at the samurais house. Got me some delicious fish.

Nagoya was kind of dissappointing, because of the hotel, but I went on a small Shin-chan stamp hunt and got to watch kids paticipating in a Pokemon mall event. The windowless hotelroom clouded my mind, so yes, I forgot why I wanted to go to Nagoya in the first place. :)

Hakone was beautiful, but cloudy. Ate 6 black eggs and was suprised to find the NERV headquarters. NGE fans will know. Got dizzy because of the gases on the mountain and went on a lil science experiment with primary school kids. No Fuji sighting for me. Also didn`t take a selfie in front of the famous Tori gate. The line for too long.

In Odawara I finally found the Triforce, Zelda-fans know. In the castle I took my ninja exam and failed just because it was designed for kids. By accident, I came upon those famouse waves in Hokusai`s paintings.

 In Tokyo I had the chance to visit the first ever held exhibition of CLAMP, my favorite manga artists. That was the only time, I wished I had someone with me. As a Skip Beat! fan I went to the iconic Fuji TV building, just to admire it from outside, but turns out that day they had some anniversary and kids special event. Yup, I got up to the top of the building, inside that ball observatorium. Of course the studios were all closed off, but hey, I got Dragonball Z Capsule Corp merch. Went on top of the Tokyo Tower, just to notice I lost my umbrella on the foot of the tower, to find an umbrella on my way back from the Sky Tower. Shibuya crossing was just another crossing and someone sat on Hachiko for a selfy. Got myself a lot of sewing supplies in Nippori Fabric Town. Got into a few Pokemon Go battles just outside the Pokemon store in Tokyo. Went to Tokio Station and the Imperial Palace, to watch some turkish brat complaining about the weather and how she will go to LA next time. Seriously, it took me a lifetime to be able to make my dream come true and that brat was complaining. Rich ppl problems.

Overall, it was a crazy experience. Hopefully, I`ll go to northern Japan in Autumn.

I also went on my first Maroccan Wedding in Marocco, that was a whole new world for me.

Hopefully, from now on I will have a lot more new experiences and hopefully the world will finally stop shedding blood.

Take care, you all. Be nice to yourself, be nice to your parents!

This is not a goodbye message, if MDL ever gets shut down, I`ll hunt Skye down and make him regret it.

This is from dapınamyrs! Its so cute! Thanks!