Just want to explain about Multiple Personality Disorder Age Freeze and Sex

Hi, person who might be dissociative here, aka, multiple personality disorder, though mine is hardly like the textbooks. I have a "child" personality among my three personalities. One is a child. One is an adult. One doesn't speak. Unlike most people who can't remember when they change personalities, mine have to talk to each other and coordinate together to make the body work. Most people would say, "my body", but for us, it's the body, a tool I've been using for a long time. I'm the lead personality and I mostly do the talking... I'm mostly a smart and "normal" person... that is to say people on the street would never guess in a million years that I have this type of disorder even if I told them to their face - they would say I just want attention and I'm "not special"... I know because they have already told me.
However, there are times when my condition is undeniable, when I don't have control of my child person, who is, in almost all ways, a child. We understand that I'm an adult, she understands that we're living in an adult body and I understand that it's my job to protect her from the outside world because only together .... only together can we make it.
I think I'm really interested in love stories for two reasons - one it's a reflection of the healthy relationship dynamic I've created with myself, accepting each other, especially because unlike most other people, we have far less choice; two is the idea that somebody would ever truly be able to accept us.
All this makes sex Really weird and difficult, to the point that I stopped trying about 10 years ago. Let's talk about how sex works for people like me - disclaimer I have no idea if it's like this for any other people no matter their mental condition.
The child is emotionally a child, but she understands what sex is. Even before, when I was around 5, I was interested in sex. It's the condition and the causes that made natural sexual expression hard. For me, when I become more sexually interested in someone, which for me is the same as being more emotionally vulnerable my personality ... I'm at high risk for becoming the child. She controls most of the emotions and I try to filter them for her in a way that is acceptable for society. Most people are not really ok with an adult woman freaking out and having an uncontrollable "temper tantrum" in the middle of a courtroom or a library for example. It's also impossible for people to understand that I'm not a belligerent person but instead lack the resources... it's to hard to explain... it affects me sexually a lot.
From my experience it's not in any way like having sex with a child, the child and the adult both understand what's going on and are able to give consent... even with the personality issue it doesn't actually affect our greater use of logic or the actual developmental changes in our brain that leads to maturity. Rather, the intensity of the experience forces the child out and if we are being honest sexually it is usually the child who will take the lead and while the child is extremely emotionally vulnerable and protective of their feelings we don't lack an understanding of what is going on.
Consent - it's harder to consent in the child personality because of the forcing of children to obey. For me it's harder when someone I've already done something with naturally expects that we will keep doing it and I'm not sure I want to but I agree anyways because I feel that otherwise I have given them a false expectation - however, it's also likely that it was my lack of overall emotional maturity and development because both of those were in my early and mid-twenties and I hear those kinds of things commonly happen at that age. For me, my ability to consent or not is really not in question because what happens is, as I emotionally mature those things I learn become like walls around me. The child self can be told by me, the adult self. We have a lot of conversations with each other that are more like negotiations. When we fight we can't make choices or use the body. Basically in a situation with lack of consent (without drugs) the adult or third personality is likely to take the place of the child personality. The third personality only exists to harm others who are trying to harm us - so it's actually more dangerous for people to sexually be with me and I have to be careful of them.. careful of all the people in the relationship you might say - all of us and the person we are with who should (in theory) become like one of "us" to "me"... be as close to me as I am with myself you might say. Lol, be as close to me as I am to my other personalities - and I'm not sure I could accept a relationship without that level of communication.
In my experience as a possible multi with a child personality, if anything happens without the child's consent the s&*#()& will hit the fan immediately, the child will leave and one of the other two will arrive (probably the third one).... but a good sexual experience is most likely to be dominated by the feelings and subsequent behaviors of the child. So the child personality participating in the sexual experience is actually a sign of consent. Without the consent the child would leave, per se.
That's what the whole system is designed for, self protection. Multi's might come off as more vulnerable than others because we've been through some things and dealing with society is hard... but the whole multi system was built to emotionally protect ourselves and eventually to protect others from us... there are less issues with consent for "me" than for most people... because I've spent so much time learning how to consent and have boundaries with the two other people who actually live inside my skin - with whom I need to cooperate to accomplish the most basic tasks of eating, sleeping, bathing, and walking around.
While I haven't seen it all... I don't believe the age of Yu Shi's child self affects his ability to consent in the manner of a real child. For comparison Americans made a movie where a baby's brain was put into an adult woman's body and then men had sex with it - that is absolutely rape because the brain was actually a child brain and that means physical changes had not taken place in the brain yet that take place when children reach maturity which affects their ability to consent. Yu Shi had an adult brain with a child personality - not the same as a child brain.
Props for sensitivity and maturity in handling both gay and multi relationships and characters. Great cinematography and set design. Costuming was not bad... could have been better in places. Giving it a 7 for the confusing editing and I feel that since most people don't know how consent works with multis that some exposition about it would have been a good choice.

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