I'm not sure how to feel about this ....

SOOOOoooo .... Um. I'm just going to be completely honest when it comes to how I feel about this series (so far). I have watched up to episode 5 and idk .. something made me want to read the reviews because I genuinely wanted to know what people thought (and there were a lot of mixed reactions). Most of the comments I saw were positive, but the negative ones were really REALLY negative .. So here are my thoughts. *Beware it's fairly long*
Like I said before, I stopped at episode 5. After reading the reviews and seeing how people were praising the series I thought "Okay well maybe I should have a glance at episode 6 just to see if it will make any difference on how I'm feeling" and it really did not. I couldn't get pass the first few minutes.
Tbh I like Toh. I love his cute smile, and I also love the way he blushes and squirms whenever Nuea does or says anything attractive (because inner me completely understands how he feels as I'm quite introverted and shy as well so I also blush easily haha). Those parts of him seem so pure and innocent. It really just feels like watching someone who is overly excited, not just because his crush is paying attention to him, but if you really think about it, most of the things that are happening to Toh (from a romantic point of view) are most likely first time experiences which makes it a bit more personal, special and intimate. I completely understand what they're trying to portray here ( just because you're quirky, shy, introverted, nerdy etc. doesn't mean that someone who is more popular and charming cannot develop genuine feelings for you) which isn't a bad message to send to the audience as this can definitely give persons who can relate to Toh's personality a sense of courage or self-esteem ... *HOWEVER*....................... There is a VERY thin line between having a crush on someone and being completely obsessed to the point where you're shoving crab in your backpack (and literally everything else that your crush BREATHES ON) simply because "it would be a waste" to get rid of it. It's a bit too much. THOSE parts of Toh make me feel genuinely concerned about him and his mental health. The photos of Nuea all over his room were already a bit too much (although not "uncommon" to some degree). It's like watching a sasaeng obsess over and stalk their kpop crush at every given opportunity ( watching their schedules, calling them, hacking their accounts, showing up at their hotel rooms etc.) and STILL rooting for them to get together while knowing that it's COMPLETELY wrong JUST BECAUSE it's a bl. I understand that it's not AS EXTREME as that but it feels as though it won't be long before it gets to that point based on how Toh is behaving (e.g. him trying to sneak into Nuea's shower to take photos of him).
It feels as though Nuea has SOME sort of idea about how obsessed Toh is but only to a certain degree. Let's be honest. If you genuinely fell for someone and found out later that they're COMPLETELY obsessed with you in an unhealthy way, would you still entertain them? I personally would feel creeped out and probably even a bit scared. I would still try to help them though especially if I cared about them as a person because this just isn't right. It's making people who would actually DO this kind of stuff in real life think that it's okay when it's NOT... "Oh this must mean that there is a chance that my crush will fall for me if I stalk him like this, it's fate !" Girl NO.
Another thing that is REALLYY bugging me is related to Nuea. Every time that I see his scenes with Toh my first thought is "wait .. doesn't he have a GIRLFRIEND?" Like mentally I just can't move on from it. We only saw her a handful of times in episode one and two ( I think) but really .. why is he entertaining Toh this heavily in the first place when he clearly has something going on with Prao?? I just can't help but feel uncomfortable about the fact that he's technically openly cheating. Like I get that Nuea's sister doesn't seem to fancy Prao THAT MUCH, but it reallyyy seems like Prao is putting in the effort to be liked. Just because someone is overly pretty and cares about makeup and skincare doesn't mean that they're automatically a bad person and it DEFINITELY doesn't mean that you should cheat on them (I'm not sure if she will do anything terrible yet or not because again I stopped at ep 5 but for now these are my thoughts about her). I HATE this narrative in bls where an original relationship is "ruined" just because it's a bl, or a girl is dumped just because their bf's love interest has all of a sudden changed on some "I'm not into boys but I'm into you" type stuff. Like yes Toh is the main character BUT just because he sulks a few times about Prao being around doesn't mean that she should just be kicked to the curve??
Last thing that annoys me is Toh's friend group. Sometimes it just feels soo over the top and annoying. His friends are sooo aware about Toh's unhealthy obsession and instead of helping him or giving genuine advice they just .. aid him? Sometimes Daisy and Som annoy me so much (although Daisy's outfits omgg 😍) but yeah, they say stuff at times where you can tell that it might have actually offended Toh's feelings and they still carry on and on when you can visibly see how annoyed Toh feels after. They also crowd him SO MUCH like yes I understand you want to know everything that's going on but give the boy some space please 😭😭 its interesting because although Toh, Daisy and Som's personality seem so similar, there's a reason why you can obviously tell that Toh is much MUCH closer to KhaoJoa (it feels as though they can tell each other anything and they're ALWAYS there for each other but not in an overly annoying way). Also, I kinda like KhaoJoa's and Sky's love interest. Although it's the basic storyline of the guy who's shy and lowkey has a crush but won't admit it so they "push the crush away" while hoping that the crush wouldn't actually leave (which the crush ofc never does).,ATLEAST KhaoJoa is level headed in the sense that he's not stalking Sky or being overly obsessive (and vice versa). I also noticed a slight love interest between Kongkwan and Fon in the 1st ep but so far there hasn't been much else about them. That's all I have to say for now. I'll probably give ep 6 - 7 one more chance.

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